urgh, talk about bad days!

i dont know, i mean, its not that i dont have friends, alot actually, and the best is qila, yg lain terasa mampus ko lah, anyway, yet i feel lonely ouh, like, how unimportant i am to everyone, like my existence means nothing at all.

i hate this, and dwelling with my life conflicts lagih, urgh,i feel so fucked up,

i dont trust anyone anymore, i really dont, ntah ah weyh, i keep doubting things, then, i keep myself away from everyone.

im tired of life, shesh, wish of not being born. i want to go back at the old days, kan qila? life as kids, were so much easier, and content. now, everything seems to be falling apart.

i have a curse in my life, a curse that i have tried to remove ever since i noticed it. but it just wont go away no matter what i tried.